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you said to me: “that’s just the way i am”
"my flaws were pre-programmed for me”
“self-improvement is a scary thing so i won’t try it”
“how dare you accuse me of apathy?”
stare decisis, you just choose to let it stand
acting on precedent ’til things get out of hand, and then you wonder…
your face gets redder and you cross your arms
your chest is puffed out like a shield
if you’re not moving forward, you’re just stalling
or worse, you’re sleeping at the wheel
stare decisis, you just choose to let it stand
acting on precedent, now things are out of hand, sometimes i wonder…
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dogs on campus
02:31
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when you told me what had happened
i felt guilty for how bad i felt,
but i kept my composure
i typed out that awful message:
“oh my god what can i do to help?”
but then i thought it over, and you know
it’s not my place, it’s not my place,
i can’t say shit to fill the space,
and you know me, i only shut up when i have to
it’s not my place, it’s not my place,
but it still keeps me awake
just knowing that, some things collapse, before they’re meant to
you’ve built up your stoicism,
so tall that nobody dares to climb
and i hope it’s enough for you
but if the stiffness of your upper
lip falls into jeopardy i hope
you know that there’s a lot of love for you out there
all i ever heard was just an echo of
a life i never knew,
but that part doesn’t matter
and as we sat there in that holy room
his echo grew to be so loud,
it could have made the windows shatter but you know
it’s not my place, it’s not my place
i can’t say shit, but i will stay
and you know me, i can be stubborn if i need to
it’s not my place, it’s not my place
i never even met his gaze
and we all only get one set of eyes to see through
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internal trade barriers
02:59
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the plan was just to go get coffee
i grabbed my shit, started the car
i picked her up, we started talking
she seemed intelligent and really nice so far
but i know that her strike won’t shatter
the barrier i built so many years ago
and so i’ve got nothing to do here
but listen to her talk, and drink my coffee slow
cause i will never love her
i will never love her, no
i don’t have too much air left
love’s a depth i cannot go
i use a quarter of my pillow
i like to sleep on the right half of my bed
i’d like for her to take the other
but that won’t happen, so i’ll drive her home instead
and muscles you don’t use get weaker
that might explain all of my failures to connect
but you can’t say that i’m not trying
i’m only trying cuz i know how good it gets
but i will never love her
i will never love her no
we’ll never be together
you and i will never grow
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It's gotten late and now I want to be alone
All of our friends were here, they all have gone home
And here I sit on the front porch watching the drunks stumble forth into the night
"You gave me a heart attack, I did not see you there.
I thought you had disappeared so early away from here."
And this is the chance I never got to make a move.
But we just talk about the people we've met in the last 5 years.
And will remember them in ten more?
I let you bum a smoke, you quit this winter past.
I've tried twice before but like this, it just will not last.
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new jersey isn't all bad
01:12
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the bed’s on the floor
my best friends are here, i don’t think i could want more
and all i can say is “jesus christ, what a year”
we lost and we gained
but the bonds that we made took the edge off the pain
we made it through this one, so here’s to the next.
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